Day 24: Spiders

So anyone who has known me for quite awhile probably knows of my great disliking of spiders... ugh I just really, really don’t like spiders. Besides shots, it was the greatest thing I was afraid of when younger(we’re talking pre-k, elementary school days) I would SCREAM at the top of my lungs when I saw one and beg for my Dad or Mom to kill it. Luckily I don’t react like that anymore, slowly I’ve been growing out of my fear of spiders. From screaming I went to the phase where I’d freak out a little but only in my mind but then ask someone to kill it for me. Then it moved towards me just leaving the room for a long time and hoping the spider would just leave, I didn’t care if it was in the house, I just did not want to see it. If it didn’t leave I would ask someone to kill it or if no one else was around, I would throw a shoe at it cause I didn’t want to get close to it. So no longer afraid of them at this point, I just have an intense disliking of them.

So at this point you’re probably wondering why am I posting about my disliking of spiders on my San Diego blog? Well, that’s because I’ve come in another milestone or maturing in my relationship so to speak with spiders. With my room out here, there is a balcony which is super nice, so I leave the door open cause the weather is always so nice out here. So I leave it open for the day and a few slightly big spiders have decided to move into my room. With the first one, I did what I always did, just left the room and hoped it would go away. Yeah that didn’t happen and this is the room I sleep in-I had to kill it and I couldn’t ask my aunt to kill it because I would have been embarrassed to ask her cause I’m supposed to be an adult now or something like that. No lies, I was totally dreading having to come close to the spider to kill it. So I grabbed a magazine, taped a kleenex to it and wham! I killed it….and not just one, with every single one that has decided to stay in my room. It’s silly but I’m so proud of myself, I have never been able to do this in my life because of this fear/disliking and now I can, although I wouldn’t chose to do it if offered the opportunity, I’d much prefer the spiders to stay out of my room in the first place.

So look at that, I’m growing up and stuff. Though I still can’t look at photos of them, they still totally gross me out(Steph Binner can attest to this).

~Lauren